Sunday, October 05, 2008

I'm One of Them

When G and I first separated I felt strong and confident and lost a lot of weight effortlessly, but over the last two or three months my weight has started creeping back up.

According to Shrink Yourself, a book about overcoming emotional eating, it's because I've been believing that I'm powerless to deal with my feelings. You might be thinking that I'm finally mourning the loss of my marriage, but I'm actually still really glad I made that decision.

What overwhelms me is that I'm "one of them", one of those people who got a subprime mortgage and racked up credit card debt.

We bough0t the condo at the peak of the market. I'm not sure what it's worth now exactly, still waiting to hear back on the appraisal, but I'm sure it's at least $20k less than what we paid for it.

I'm so embarrassed by my decisions and I'm so scared that I'm not going to be able to make ends meet. I know I can't expect prince charming to save me from my financial mistakes. In fact, I'm afraid that no guy in his right mind will want to date me seriously with the debt I have.

1 comment:

Paige said...

You will get out of this mess Nat. It will take time but your debt does not define you. Also, quit beating yourself up...there is no way you could have known that the houseing market would drop out. I have alot of debt too. That will not scare someone who truly cares for you.